Content Notice: This story contains references to Domestic Abuse, Sexual Assault, and Rape.
I’ve lived around mental illness a long time. I got married in 2003 at age 29 and at first, it was good. But gradually, I began to see my spouse exhibit jealousy, paranoia, and distrust. I learned that he had issues from childhood and from his first wife cheating on him. I experienced the aftermath of this. We argued a lot. He would play mind games, turning things around to make it seem like it was my fault. No matter what I did, he always managed to twist things around. Eventually, I felt like I was losing my mind. I was starting to notice changes within myself – losing my patience, yelling and screaming so I could be heard, crying all the time, and isolating myself from everything.